Thursday, August 16, 2007,2:50 pm
O'LEVEL ORAL .
ohkay . i KNOW .
super long havent updated le .
and i promised shalini they all that i would update on 18JULY.
yeah . but that didnt work out .
hahahaha .
since get to use the com . why not eh ?
first . read something on xinjie's blog that i felt touches on alot of things .
[ YEAH . i decided to try using normal english for posts ]
To my friends who are......Single
Love is like a butterfly.
The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it.
Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love is only special when you give to someone who is worth it.
so take your time and choose the best.
To my friends who are......Not So Single
Love isn't becoming somebody else's "perfect person".
It is about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
To my friends who are......Heartbroken
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
To my friends who are......Afraid To Confess
Love hurts when you break up with someone.
It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you.
But love hurts the most:
when the person you love has no idea how ou feel about him/her.
To my friends who are......Still Holding On
A sad thing in life is that when you meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be, and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.
If that person isn't worth it now, he/her is not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.
TO ALL MY FRIENDS......
My wish for you is a man/woman whose love is honest, strong, mature, never-changing, protective , encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.
especially my darling JULIA . who is confused . read the first one ! hahahaha .
ohkay larhs . im trying to break myself to the last past . about people who are still holding on .
for me . i guess three years has kinda reiterated that to me countless of times ?
and i know im probably the most [quote by shuni] "idiot".
but . to me .
whats the use of forcing yourself to get over someone ?
experience has taught that the more you force . the harder it is .
i mean . why elude such feelings ?
holding on has given me hope . happiness . motivation .
even if it does at times bring sadness. disappointment. regret . tears and all .
love is supposed to be xing fu . and i intend to keep it that way .
the negative ones are nothing in the eyes of what bliss it has given me .
and im sure one day these feelings will go away .
but for now, why should i force ?
true love will make its way one day .
till then . why should i bicker so much about it (:
YEAAAAAAAAAH . SHOCKED PEOPLE ?
i do have a mature side .
and im not so DUMB kay (:
anyways . today was the effing english oral for olevel . YAY ?
kinda suckish .
julie and i were the first in our rooms can .
and honestly it was seriously topsy turvy from what i envisioned .
oh wells mr cheong . i guess the mental envisioning isnt always the most POSITIVELY powerful (: but im grateful anyways . each oral teaches something new eh ?
when i first read the passage . i felt it was quite alright .
no difficult words .
but . i could feel that i had let the stress get the better of me .
and distracted on whats was happening on the first floor .
saw weixian play netball . TELL ME THATS NOT DISTRACTING ?!
lols. anyways .
i could sense that the comfortable dramatic sensation of yesterday practicing in mac were gone .
i tried hard to catch them back .
but i just didnt have the mood ?
something mrs choo said today really struck me =x
yeah . the picture was about some bus caught in a flood . and a bunch of young man pushing it .
i was quite relieved. i ran the 6 points in my mind . was kinda confident .
but . LO-AND-BEHOLD ! i wasnt to get that chance .
the moment it started . they started SHOOTING NON-STOP .
ohkay . mr cheong had warned of it .
but i seriously didnt expect this .
my picture discussion was like . about 30secs ?
SHOOT a qn . ans the qn . squeeze a little about significance . then describe bus driver EMOTION only .
thats all . and the spiteful words "okay lets move on to conversation"
i mean . in my head was seriously WTH ?!?!
i was seriously shocked .
then . all the shooting during conversation .
i almost broke down there .
ENVIRONMENT . WEATHER .
ohmygosh . there was so much to say larhs .
but he didnt give us the chance .
every like three sentences i said . he would literally cut me off and arouse a different question .
half of me wanted to go WTH ! and wrap my hands around his neck .
but . part of me understood i guess .
this is what seperates the really great speakers .
to bring about your point clear and concise in such short time .
under pressure . only a few sentences to support you .
should have known better ):
but yeah . based on what i was allowed to say .
if i were the examiner . i wouldnt give myself high marks either .
and i guess thats whats disappointed me the most .
O'LEVEL LEHS .
i wouldnt mind seriously .
if it was because i lacked content .
that at least i could admit that i wasnt prepared enough . i had done best i could .
but ..
there WAS content .
there WERE things to say .
i just didnt plan my way i guess (:
well . thanks to cherie. shuni. julia. imah . azureen .
i learnt my lesson (:
i serious broke down so hard lah .
regrets . of course . but .. have to get over it yeah ?
i'll get a lollipop from them anyways . ladidaa ~
yeah . MAC again .
and i feel there's more people each day .
had to keeep on asking julia non-stop to come lorhs .
and she like reluctant .
keep saying not sure .
i guess i was a little frustrated at that .
and after reading her blog .
but i want her to know .
you think we're leaving you out . but you're the one doing that to us ?
did you ever realise that ?
well . something SUPER EFF-ING SCARY HAPPENED AT MAC CAN !
a rather old man . quite plum .
suddenly came up to me .
while we're studying .
he glared at me seriously with the most serious eyes [besides dad] i have ever seen .
i was super shocked larhs .
i really dont know .
he leaned in . stretch up his hands . like as if i had done something wrong .
i really FREAKED OUT .
i dont know !
i was like huh ? thinking whether sent by dad or something . or whether something i left out .
NOTHING . SERIOUSLY MY MIND CLEAN !
i was so afraid can .
he stare for super long . then i let out one "huh?"
then he just walked off . ohmygosh .
ohkay . thinking about that seriously sending chills .
anyways . on the way back .
talked to guolong awhile .
wah ! kena ps seh ! hahahaha .
yeah . called julia too .
she like . distracted .
tried to tell her about this .
but she like . too absorbed by other things to listen ba .
she talked about CA .
so i decided to let it go . let her do her things lorhs .
had a goood chat with shuni .
really needed that .
though she was the one i was nagging at . hahaa .
then i came and blog ! muahaha (:
ohkie dokies . dont say i didnt update . hahahhaa :D
and OHMYGOSH .
jarryl im so sorry .
[some of you should know what it means]
heheheheeh :D
glad to have given you that short while of happiness . oOps . lol
heartofGodchurch